good friends make great short films.

and in a second
like the blinking of stars
we are born, we grow a little, and then we find ourselves completing that great circle.
we were just babes in sandboxes
now women in love and starting our lives and families.
so fast it flies.
i cherish her. i love her.
she has always known me for every second of my existence
and she still loves me back and chooses me to be close
and claims me not only by the blood that bonds us but as a friend.
she was married today and now everything is eden in the springtime of her life.
and i was there to see it all.

Mmf i want to kiss you.
to feel your lips on mine,
to feel the shape of ur
mouth both as an
absolute shape and as a
liquid filling my body
..........................

Name: Rachel
Date: 4/16/2009
Colorgenics Number: 32540176

You are tending to pursue your objectives with concentrated intensity and it would seem that whatever obstacles may come into your path, you will stick to your guns and will not allow yourself to be deflected from your purpose. You are striving to achieve recognition and what is more - you deserve it.

You are looking for something different. Your imagination has been working overtime and you are seeking adventure - and you'd like to share that adventure, the new experience, with someone like yourself: Imaginative, Enthusiastic and Sensitive.

Your involvements seldom measure up to your high emotional expectations and your 'needs' to be 'loved' and 'cared for' have in the past often led to extreme disappointment. But a change is in the wind - make a firm decision to start anew. Just 'think' it..and it will happen.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.

insert the coin
and spill the words
life listed tactics
found for the birds
settle and startle
combine and decay
all that is flesh
will all soon decay

fickle and fraught
with open end lyre
cash your stones out for diamonds
and stoke up the fire

responding to calls
the 3am scene
the machine is the voice
of between you and me

nonverbal and dynamic
i set this to spin
unconscious the weaving
of fingers and pen
allowing the verbiage
the vernacular to flow
and soot is the ink
the dove is the crow

Apr 29 2009
Houston, TX
Warehouse Live
Co-Headline with Black Kids.
Sunbears! opens

this will be on tv int he local area soon :) haha! enjoyyyy

i can't even express the way i've been feeling in my life recently.
i have all these lines of poetry and verbiage and syntax and thought swirling through my head into a viable goulash of emotion that i can't even put into a form yet. emotions measured like grains of sand on a beach: innumerable, vast - all compacted together that stretch out further than the eye can see.

happiness is a state of being. you can find it in many ways, in many places.

i find mine in organic pizza parlors and dog parks and in sheets that are constantly being washed.
but more than any of these, i find it on the bridge of her nose when she laughs - in the way her mouth moves when she smiles- in her most beautiful eyes that are all i see when i close mine.

The first movie i was in/worked on [Holly's Story-the one i got on IMDB for] is being broadcast on Television in Romania.



freakin sweet...except people in romania are seeing the 17 year old version of myself. on screen. how embarassing!
haha!

i feel really tired/shleepy today. all through work i kept yawning! didn't even put on makeup today either. i've been working nearly every day lately and so has lova but it makes the time we do get to see each other so worth it. i can't wait for a date night soon.

i like these few moments between the busy where my roomies are in transit or out and about and i get the apartment to myself for a few moments. it's nice. it makes me remember how much i liked living in my one bedroom in california alone. i like some solitude sometime. it'll be a nice day when L and i have our own place with just a cat or two as roommates. i daydream about it sometimes. i mean, i love LOVE adam and hailey. they are the best roommates - but we just have a lot going on. all of us. and it's impossible to separate work from home. and i think that is necessary in a soft place to fall, in a nest.

anyhoo i'm deciding what to make for dinner and already have some pajamas calling my name then i'll browse for some stuff i don't really need on amazon.com, etsy and ebay and melt my brain with some hulu while i wait to get my phone call from my sig. otha tellin' me she's offfff :)

can't
get
enough

?

mmf

it's the little things in life that make me really happy
and have faith in humanity
best T Mobile advert ever
way to go, England!

This is a music video my production company did.

the band is Skyscrapers Walk Among Us and the song is "My Best Friend Is Now My Worst Enemy"

forgive the resolution - it is intended for HD but i can't post it in HD on LJ
enjoy! :)

was wonderful. it was our first one together.

i like that she makes me feel so at home, so peaceful and right. it doesn't matter what we are doing as long as we are together.

we traded flowers and canvas and cards and had soup on the night of the 13th and on the 14th she made me the best dinner ever after i got off of work.

[on a side note-i think its fascinating that humans decided to choose card giving as their way of expressing deep feelings. its just one of those interesting things i can sit and just ponder about.]

anyhoo, the best bit is the letter she put in my card. it will be part of my evening reading for many nights to come when i can't be next to her.

hot damn
i couldn't be happier!

adam and i have had some crazy car adventures in the past couple days. he got pulled ova and we were stranded when we ran out of gas! i don't think we are meant to ride in cars together heh. oh, and we ventured into the madness that was the free breakfast at dennys. it was worth it for a pancake. yurm.

first day of shooting "pieces" went really well - friday night is our club scene.
i don't even wanna think about how crazy a day saturday will be what with filming an indian wedding in the morning and shooting several scenes for "pieces" that evening.

but regardless of how crazy it gets, i love it so. i feel so alive making films. its like my soul takes over.
i love all of it.

and i love my love. she is so wonderful and i don't know what i would do without her.
who else can i comfortably play matchbox race cars with - or who handles my slow eating - or who knows exactly how i like to be kissed?

no one and thats why i love her.
well, three reasons. there might be a couple more ;)